Hype Hype this year

Real talk though.
This whole husband hype.
I feel that it really is just a hype.
Or am I standing alone in my.. immaturity?
My interest in potential others has lasted as long as 3 days at times.
Other times, my affection for that situation with a potential somebody, is greater than, and outlives my genuine affection for that particular somebody. But then the 2 become confused. Everyone tells you and you tell yourself: this is who ya like hinni. And then months later, on that grim morning, when it's all dead and gone, you lie in bed, motionless. Reminescing. Reminesce.

Ok, it's not normally that deep LOL.

But you recall 1. The first time you're lips touched. Wasn't it like, damnnnn, somebody managed to smuggle fireworks out here-
erm.
UH-
NO.

WRONG. You always thought that the first kiss was premature. You were actually kissing your teeth in your head. Not to mention rolling your eyes. As he edged nearer, you felt you just had to go through with it because otherwise he'd feel rejected and it would make things awkward. There wasn't even enough saliva in your mouth at that moment. (LOL- sorry for the mental image). But you thought, it's only a kiss afterall right? Anyways, it wasn't like you had something else was popping in your life at the oment.


Or

2. He really opened up to you; you loved having those deep conversations on the phone.
Hmm.
2.a. The mean length of your conversations was 37 minutes. Not usually enough time for a person to verbalise their psychology
2.b. 90% of the time, he rang after 10.30pm. Not definite bootycall hour, but late enough to tell you that he had probably completed every moderately important task prior to the phone call. Feel appreciated much?
2.c. You discover little substanial information about this person during the conversation. Even though you've been speaking for 2 hours, the conversation is guided by EastEnders, youtube, 'us', whatever, you name it, cos' it aint really about him.

3. The chemistry. The sparks. Flashing- lights? I'm talking the romance when it was just you two.
Hmm.
How much of this happened before 6 in the evening? I'm talking broad daylight where you're peers could witness this commitment. Also, was it really just you two? Or were you occasionally and seemingly randomly saluted by his close friend? This friend I refer to rolls with fraternal twins at either side, usually surrounded easy breathing material. Sounds more like passionate lust. Heathen! Lol. I joke,  I kid I kid. It's excellent if you have never experienced this phenomenom. Fantastic even. Unless you just aren't vigilant of course...

It could also be the case of there existing all the right actions, but naturally, there is a lack of substance behind it at such early days. Like, you're picnicing under the stars. Mans brought you your fave film to watch on your date. Yes. All these things are good. But you've been talking like 7 days. If you weren't real friends beforehand, this is just to whoo you fam. Just think, how much more ideal would this be however if you had been talking for 6months?

This list could continue forever.

Lets continue.
4. He has done something that guys generally don't do for some 'any girl'. Tip: watch American pie- all sequels preferably. Rightfully, you would expect alot more from such a person. 11.30am, Sunday, he's right there. Surely, thats commitment to self control and loving behaviour. Whatever. But he's known as a nice guy. Either way, human nature has a way rearing its ugly head when you're consumed with your own desires. Anything goes. And sex isn't always the aim. It may be the feeling of affirmation from drawing another girl or guy thats at stake. Are these deeds to whoo you or is it a profession of the love experienced at first sight? Tip: if anyone tells you that, you should probably run very far away.

5. You weren't quite sure where you stood. Need I say more?

Back to the matter at hand. Don't get gassed. These things are no big deal. But its bad if it's effecting your being content with life as it stands right now. Our memory can become very selective and distorted at times. We tend remember things much better than they were. We enjoy reminescing. Its like that bit at the beginning of Love in a Hopeless place: sometimes you wish you could have the bad, just so you could have the good... Hmm..there was alot of drug abuse in that video. I'm going to assume thats not your situation, so you don't have to wish for the bad.

Surely. There must exist individuals who don't play these games. Games I thought would stop at 18years of age. I was mistaken. So were the people reminscing over the aforementioned tales that provoked me to write this. Anyway, don't get gassed. If that relationship status currently stands at fi dead, things could never have been as great as you thought it, could they? Stop overthinking the situation and find a better way to use that time. I reccomend watching American dad. No rom-coms for you!

=P

xoxox